Yesterday I shared with you my intention with moving through 100 days of filming. It’s always scary sharing an intention because of the what if game. What if I break a leg? What if I get covid again? What if something happens and I don’t follow through will that mean I’m a failure? Since I declared it out loud publicly will you hold it against me if I don’t complete it? How do I overcome the potential issues and push forward not just in private but publicly? I just need to shut this “what if demon” up, think better thoughts, and redirect my mind away from all the gibberish but It’s easier said than done.
Did you know there is a war on art, and it happens daily? The war is our own thoughts that we must overcome. Steven Pressfield wrote the book about it. Essentially the book “The War on Art” is a pep talk helping us know we must overcome our own selves to push forward and win the war against resistance.
Speaking of intentions, I haven’t shared my new year’s ritual which has everything to do with intent. Instead of a new year’s resolution I always pick a word. The word is something I want to see for the upcoming year as a theme and has layers of meaning. The first year I picked a word it was the word thrive because I wanted to live as fully as I could. The second year I picked a word and then forgot it for whatever reason. The third year my word was change and I was not going to forget it this time. I put reminders all over my environment in for form of symbols. I even bought a dragonfly necklace which symbolizes change to wear to remind me and it worked. This year the word light picked me by coming up repeatedly, so I gave in and decided to go ahead and accept the word. The more I thought about the word the more it grew on me. I was going to let more light into my house, shed light on my work, allow my words to be shown and it seemed perfect. The word even took over in January so much so that I was inspired to paint almost 200 paintings. I got so much done! It was in all that momentum and in the spirit of that word that I chose to do the 100-day challenge and shed light on what I know about art. There is no time for the “what if game” nor any kind of resistance really. I helps that I know in the end that you will be kind to me if I somehow don’t complete my goal on time. I also always have my blanket fort to sulk in with a bowl of ice cream before putting on a smile and getting on with it.
Cathy